Helloooooo fatass!

I've been sick this week.  Lungs are pretty bad.  Mostly, I've been fantasizing about exercising.  Sounds stupid, I know.  But I fantasize especially vigorously when I try to put on a pair of jeans.  They mostly don't fit any more. 

The depression has taken a toll and the general sadness makes it very difficult to motivate.  Plus, when I am exercising, it makes me think of all the things I wanted my life to be, but now it most definitely is not. 

Everything is changing and I'm trying to be okay with it.  I need, most of all, to find the part of me that is proud of being strong and fit.  My lungs are really suffering.  And if I don't start really exercising again, regularly and soon, this winter might be one of my worst yet in NYC.

Today, my body feels tired and sick and I've had a painful headache all day.

Run/Walk for Five Miles

http://connect.garmin.com/activity/226122701

Five K

http://connect.garmin.com/activity/226034875

Crisp Fall Morning

http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224732142

Start Running Again

http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224732157

Nation's Triathlon

Crazy swim info:  http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224546027
Transition 1: http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224546046
Bike: (watch) http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224546079
(bike computer) http://connect.garmin.com/activity/222862839
Transition 2: http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224546103
Run: http://connect.garmin.com/activity/224546134