One of my last posts in what was a very long and difficult year. I have gone through a lot and am finding that as I wrap out 2012, my ability to expect the right amount from myself is improving.
A few things have happened:
I upped my training from last year
I had a job that was wonderful and met wonderful people there
I had to lower my training because I was too tired, overworked and depressed
I was elected treasurer of the choir I love
I continued to train and try to just muscle through the sadness
I visited my best friend and her family, who I love and miss
I trained in Florida doing an open-water "lap" in salt water for the first time
I performed Bach's B Minor Mass with the choir that I love, this was also the first piece I sang with the group
I stood my ground and defended what I knew to be right
I was kicked out of the choir I love
I did my first aquathlon and didn't die
I applied what I learned and trained, but a little less than before
I left my job and my career to pursue something else and try to pay bills
I lost my desire to succeed
In spite of that, I did my first FULL Olympic triathlon and PUNCHED IT IN THE FACE!
I struggled, stumbled, fell, bled, was injured, was heart broken, was lost and I got up again
I did my second full Olympic triathlon and learned what it meant not to train well enough
I asked for help and found it in a friend who helped me set limits
I lost my ability to love myself, and so I made some changes to get better
I joined a new choir
I visited my dad, who I love and miss
I asked for help and found it in a friend and yoga
I worked through a super storm with my company and felt strong and smart and capable
I tried to get into the NYC Tri, but didn't make it through the lottery, I will volunteer instead
I took time off with myself, thanks to a friend who lent me her space
I moved and all of my friends helped, and I was grateful
My mom visited, I love and miss her
I made Thanksgiving dinner with my dearest friend and had a wonderful time entertaining people I love
I asked for help and found it in friends and family and doctors who care
I had a wonderful concert and a lovely time with my new choir friends singing carols and being merry
I lean on my friends and they let me, I am so grateful
I continue to feel better, though I also still feel pain
I went to my first pro-sporting event, a Nets game - double OT with a hail-Mary win at the finish!
I sang Christmas carols at the White House
I registered for the Nation's Triathlon
I am looking forward to training
I have started to get ready
I have lost so much this year, but I am hoping to gain twice as much next year. It's a lucky year for me. Thirteen is my number.
